I Can't Bring Myself To Hate You. Neither Can I Bring Myself To Love You. I Just... LIKE YOU?

Yesterday Was National Day! :D Happy 46th Birthday Singapore! Wasn't A Good Day Anyway. I Still Prefer Last Year's Performance Because It Was Longer And I Find It More Interesting Than This Year's Performance But Nevertheless, The Performers Still Did A Great Job As Well As The Military. Hehe. Yesterday Spent The Whole Morning And Afternoon Studying, And Only Managed To Slack At Night.

Phew Common Test Is Finally Here. 2 More Days To It's Start. The First Two Papers Are English And Social Studies! And I'm Almost Done Preparing For Social Studies! (: But Not For The Rest Of The Subjects. Haven't Finish My Past Year Maths Common Test Homework. So Difficult Sia. I Manage To Complete The First Question Only And Got Stucked At The Second Question Than No Mood Do Already. ): Sian. Got To Jiayou. I Forget Some Of The Stuff I've Learnt At The Start Of This Term Because There's Really So Many Things To Remember And There's Only This Much I Can Absorb At A Time.

Jiayous People! Feel Stressful? Listen To Songs! Hehe. They Help To Release Stress! (:

Stay Tune~

每次难过不让你看见

怕你违背心愿

其实你不懂我的时间

都是用来想念

From The First Day I've Known You, I Might Already Have Lost You.

Today Had A Great Time! Hahaha! Morning, National Day Performance In School Was Simply Awesome. The NC Talent Quest This Year Is Still As Competitive As Last Year! But The Singing Is Rather Disappointing. When You Sing, You Really Have To Put Your Emotions Into The Song To Make The Audience Feel It. I Don't Feel It. They're Like Using Their Normal Talking Voice To Sing And 'Eeeeks'! Listen Already Feel Like Puking. It's Like Noise Pollution To My Ears. Really Think They Shouldn't Have Sang. Not Only Did They Not Get Plus Points, I Think The Judges Probably Deduct Their Marks! Shall Not Comment Much!

Afternoon Was Simply Awesome! All The Fast Food Restaurants At Compass Are Filled With People And There Ain't Any Place For Us To Have Our Meal! We Took A Long Time To Decide Before Making Our Final Decision To Make Our Way To Anchorvale CC Macdonald's. Haha So Undecisive Right!? To Our Surprise The Mac There Is Rather Empty! Zhong Heng Treat Mcflurry! Shiok Ah! ^^ After That We All Went To Richard's House To Have Fun! :D Lalala.

But I Guess Time Really Flies~ Those Times Are Over. Got To Work Really Hard Tomorrow. To Make Up For The Fun I Had Today.

那一天發現了你的好

愛上你的微笑

If Even Your Last Hope Is Dashed. What Will You Do?

Today Had Whole Lots Of Fun At Our School's Annual Shines In Harmony! This Year Game Stalls Were Really Epic And Much More Fun Than Last Year's! Really Had A Great Time And Enjoyed Myself Loads! :D Our Angry Birds Stall Most Fail Among All The Games Though.

But Nevermind About That. When You're Having So Much Fun, Time Flies Really Fast Without You Realising. Coming Up Next Is The National Day's Before The Common Test And Those Holidays Are Time For Me To Do Revision. No Time To Slack. Have To Do Well For This Common Test Cause I Did Badly For My Test And I Cannot Afford To Fail Both My Test And Common Test.

Hmm. Sometimes, Family Problems Can Get Really Out Of Hand. But It's Not The Case For My Family. The Problems Are Already Way Out Of Hand. I Don't Have Good Vibes About My Parents. My Father Is Always An Asshole. If Someone Can Ever Tolerate Him, That'll Be A Miracle. If You Want To Know How Bad He Is, I Can Write A 10 Page Essay On Him And You Could Really See That He's Such An Ass. 


He Always Say That I'm So Lazy. It's The Truth In The Past, I Must Admit. I Use To Be Lazy And Still Get Decent Grades But Recently, Especially Since Sec 3, I've Been Working Harder Than Before And Especially Since Recently, I've Been Putting In Lot's Of Effort In My Studies. Spent Hours Completing Homework Which I Use To Just Copy. But My Grades Keep Dipping. The Syllabus Is Getting Harder And More Complicated. There's More To Memorise For Almost Every Subject. But. If My Father Understands Then Talk So Much About Experiencing Those Hard Times When He Was Young, Than Why Am I Feeling Those Hard Times Now? He Simply Doesn't Understand Me.


He Always Comes In To My Room At The Wrong Time And See's Me Using The Phone. I Was Probably Just Replying A Message Or Taking A 5mins Break On Facebook. What He Din't Know Or Notice Was The Hours I Had Spend On My Homework And Revision. Alright I Can Let This Matter Off Cause I Can't Blame Him. People Only Believe What They See Right? I'm Fine With This. I Can Tolerate. 


Second Thing About Him And What Makes Him An Asshole? He's Such A Stingy Fellow. Always Wasting Money On TOTO Or 4D And Never Win. And When I Take Money From Him Just To Go Out With Friends For A Meal, He Refuses To Give And Say A Whole Lot Of Crap. He Still Uses My Pocket Money To Threaten Me To Do Things. 'Wow' You Must Be Thinking What A 'Great And Awesome' Father I Have. The Best Joke Of The Day Is That If He Should At Least Threaten Me, Shouldn't He Increase My Pocket Money? It's Not As If He Gives Me $50 A Day. He Doesn't Even Give $10 A Day. It's Barely Enough To Feed Myself. I Will Always Skip Recess Or Lunch Because If I Don't Save Up Those Money, Or How Am I Able To Go Out With Friends For A Meal? I Can't Rely On Him Can I? 


Third Thing I Really Really Hate About Him. And Not Only Him. Anybody Who Acts As If They Are Concern Really Pisses Me Off. Act As If Really Care About Me. Talk So Much Only Care About Yourself. Do You Even Understand Me? Understand The Stress I'm Facing? You Think I Don't Know Why You Are Pressurising Me? Talk So Much About Me Being So Smart In The Past. PSLE I Never Studied And Get 242. You Put So Much Hope On Me. I Made You Disappointed Recently And You Probably Had Lot's Of Stress Than What? Vent Your Anger Of Me? Say What I No Hope. You're Just Scared That If My Brother Don't Do Well In The Future, I Could Still Get A Decent Job And Take Care Of You.The Problem Is If Now You Feel That I No Hope Than Keep Giving Me So Much Pressure On Studies For What? 


Is It You Feel That Teacher's Are To Relax, Not Giving Us Pressure? Everyday Got Extra Lessons, SSL, Still Got Whole Lot's Of Homework To Be Done. I May Be Young But I'm 100% Sure That The During The Olden Times, The Education Is So Sucky And You Learn Way Lesser Than What We Learn And Don't Feel The Stress.You Just Don't UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL DO YOU? Only Care About Yourself I Must Say. Haven't Vent My Anger Yet Though. Really Can't Tolerate Any Longer But Than I Will Continue To Tolerate. Yes. Till I Really Break Down. Till I Fall Hard. While You Can, Cherish It My Dear Father. I'm Giving You Face. I Could've Made You Feel All Guilty By Spilling The Beans Out On How I Feel About You. I Know You Still Have Conscience So I Din't Say It Out. If I Say It Out, It's Not Time For Me To Reflect, But Instead, YOU. Reflect On How Fail You Are. Why Do You Think You Have Always Been Guiding Me But I Fail To Do Well? Isn't It Partially Your Fault? Try To Meddle In My Studying Methods. I Remember In Sec 1 And 2, No One Guided Me And I Did Rather Okay. But In Sec 3, You Starting Trying To Guide Me And I'm Doing From Bad To Worse. Blame It On You But I Know You Must Be Thinking, 'Blame It On You.'


Feeling All Tired And Stressed-Out.

休息是为了 

走更长的路

Just Because We Don't Talk, We Don't Look At Each Other, Doesn't Mean I Don't Think About You. The Reason Is Because I Know I Can't Have You.

Finally. It's Coming To The End Of The Week. Yet Another Week Gone Like That. Tomorrow Will Be Having The Shines In Harmony. Need To Report To School At 7!!! Sian Diao. For 6 Consecutive Week Had Not Had A Good Sleep On Saturday Because Of My CCA But Now CCA Stand Down Than Got Shines In Harmony!!! -.- 

This Week Is Hell. The Week That We Students Suffer The Most Because Next Monday To Wednesday Will Not Have Any Lessons And The Common Test Is On Friday But It's Finally Over. Teachers Just Keep Going On And On And On And They Never Realise That We Students Don't Even Understand What They Are Teaching. They Are Rushing The Syllabus And I'm Sure They Can Finish Teaching Everything Before The Common Test. Just That We All Don't Understand What're They Teaching.

When Teachers Go Too Fast, We're Not Given Time To Comprehend And Absorb. All We're Taught Are The Formulas Or What We Have To Know But When It Comes To Applying, We're So Dead. Twist The Question Slightly And I'm Sure I Can't Solve It Already. For Today's Chemistry Lesson, Teacher Manage To Finish Teaching Everything That Will Be Covered In The Common Test But We'll Have To Go Back And Memorise Everything. For Physics, I Think I'll Fail My Common Test. Though The Teacher Had Taught Us The Method To Find Newton At Which Direction Depending On The Force And Direction, When It Comes To Applying In The Workbook Questions, I Simply Can't Solve. I'm Like: 'What Is The First Step? What Do I Do Next?' When I Saw The Questions.

 For The Seemingly Long Holidays Because Of National Day, It Is Used For Us To Prepare For Our Common Test But The Teachers Said As If We Ate Up Their Period And They Wanted Make-Up Lessons. If Holidays = Eating Up Teacher's Lessons, Than During School Holidays, We Must Have Eaten A Whole Lot Of Their Lessons, Then What's The Point Of Holidaysss!? -.- I Believe Teachers Feel Stressed Too. They Should Be Able To Understand How We Students Are Also Equally If Not, More Stressed.

Hahaha! But There's Something To Rejoice About Today! It's

Soo Qing's & Jalvin's Birthday!

Happy Birthday My Fellow Brothers! 

To Soo Qing:
           Haha Hope You Had Fun At Pizza Hut Cause I Did And I Bet You Did! :D This Three Years In Nan Chiau High School Has Been Simply Awesome With Friends Like You! We Always Manage To Suan Each Other! Hahaha! We Make Good And Awesome Brothers! :D


To Jalvin:
          Isn't It Awesome? We've Known Each Other Since P3 Or Is It P4 Till Now? :D You're Still Equally Smart Or Would I Say Smarter? Though I've Become Rather Stupid! -.- Hehehe! Must Help Me In Maths!!! :D

Thinking Of The Amount Of Homework And Revision I Have To Do, I Just Feel All Lazy. I Shall Try But I Know I'll Never Make It Finishing My Revision For Each And Every Subject As Well As Completing Those Homework.

我们的爱

差异一直存在

只不过我们

并没有察觉

Gone Through It. Live Through It. Endure Through It. But Still Not Use To It.

Yesterday Had 2 Test. History Test Was Still Okay. Maths Test No Time Again! -.- Haiz. Today Is A So Freaking Bored Day. Maths Maths Maths! Sian Diaoz... 3 Period Of Maths! Freak Me Out Sia!!! And Maths Teacher Was Going Like So Damn Fast. Skip This Skip That. LOL! In The End I Still Don't Know What I've Learn For Maths Today Except The Formulas. Know Formula, Don't Know How Apply Also No Use.

Today Also Had SS Test. Haha The Test To Me Is Simple! (: Lalala. Anyway I Just Realised All Teachers Are Starting To Rush All The Lessons. It's As If They Want To Complete Teaching Everything That Will Come Out For The Common Test Which Starts Next Friday. But My Point Is, They're Teaching So Fast That I Cannot Even Absorb Half Of What They Are Even Teaching!

Next Saturday Still Have Lessons From 9am-1.15pm -.- I Don't Mind The Extra Lessons Though. But I Just Hope The Teachers Go Slower Especially MATHS! Chemistry And Physics Equally Crazy Though. Physics I'm Like Gonna Fail. Totally Don't Understand. MATHS Is Really CRAZY Though. Almost Finish 3 Chapters In Just 1 Week. My Head Gonna Burst Already. 3 HOURS OF MATHS. Had Enough Already. And Curse The Pile Of Homework. Like Seriously How Are We Gonna Revise For Our Common Test With That Pile Of Homework?

Trying My Best To Catch Up In Class. Teachers Going Too Fast. Too Much Homework. So Much Stress. Common Test Up In One Week Time. End-Of-Year Exams In About 7-8 Weeks Time. Teachers Complaining About How Much Of The Syllabus We Are Still Left With To Complete. Need To Work Harder. Got To Work Harder. MUST WORK HARDER.

Jiayous Jiayous!!! (:

等到放晴的那天　

也許我會比較好一點 

I Just Have To Find Someone Who's Worth My Tears. Worth My Laughter. Worth My Heart And Love Me As Much As I Love Them.

Just Came Back From Basketball Training. Very Tired Though Never Really Did Much For Training Today Because I Missed Half Of The Training Due To SSL. Haiz. Trying Very Hard To Juggle My CCA's With My Studies. JYJY. You Can Do It! (: All You Need Is Some Motivation.

Today Had Maths Test! The Easiest Test I Had This Whole Year. The Test Was Sooooooo Eassssyyyy! But Could Not Finish It. Arghhhhhhh. I Was Able To Solve Every Single Question But Din't Have Time To Fully Complete Last 2 Questions. The Test Was Really So Easyyyy. Ewww. No Time. 40 Minutes To Complete 40 Marks Worth Of Questions. Zzzz. For Other Test, I Leave Blanks Not Because I Don't Have Time To Complete But I Really Can't Solve. For This Test, I Did Practice Over And Over Again. But Than. The Problem Is Not About Solving. It's About The Time.

Tomorrow Will Have Another Maths Test And A History Class Test. History Got Loads To Memorise. Need To Concentrate. Focus. FOCUS. I'll Just Do My Best. Anyway Tomorrow Is Going To Suck. Lessons Till 4.40pm? I'm Really Scared I Fall Asleep In School And Get Caught By Teacher. >:( I Might Need Some Coffee To Keep Me Awake.

Sharing Yet Another Song And It's By 李炜 :D

That's All For This Post! Stay Tune~ (:

留下触不到的可惜

陨落下了我们的回忆 

Sometimes, You Really Have To Smile To Hide Your Fears And Laugh To Hide Your Tears...

I Hate Myself For Being SO BLUR Today. Haiz. Lucky I Left My House Early And Catch The Early Bus. Forget To Wear My Tie To School When There's Duty In The Morning! IKR! Blur Sotong. I Realised It Rather Slow But Still Early Enough When I Boarded The Bus And Alighted The Next Stop And Ran Back Home To Get My Tie. Ewwww. I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING A GOOD FOR NOTHING.

And I'm Really Good For Nothing. Failed My Physics Test Like So Damn Badly And Even Worst Than Mine Chemistry Test.. Probably Got Last In Class Though Only 17 People Passed. Oh Man! My Marks Are Way Too Low And After Knowing My Mistakes, I Could Have God Damn Passed. Too Careless Of Me And Missed Out Too Many Keywords Though The Main Concept Was There.

I've Been Failing My Test Consecutively. I Wonder What's Wrong With Me. Even My Friends Must Have Noticed That I Wasn't My Usual Self, At Least When It Comes To Studies. I Don't Use To Fail Test Like I Do Now. It Has Become So Common Within Such A Short Period Of Time. Failing Is Becoming More And More Usual To Me. I Can't Find My Old Usual Confident Self Where Passing Is Not An Alternative. Passing Is A Must. Like Seriously, I Keep Asking Myself WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME.

At Least Like In Jogging, I Need To Find Myself A Motivation In Studies. I Need A Motivation To Do Well. I Cannot Learn Independently. I Need Help. It's Still Not Too Late Before I Fail All My Subjects. I Might Not Have Failed My Recent Maths And Geography Test But I Know My Results Ain't Good. I Need To Work Harder. Way Harder Than This.

And I've Been Spending Alot Of Money On Food Recently. Should Start Saving Money, Though I Don't Know Why I've A Craving For Oreo Mcflurry Recently.

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