If Even Your Last Hope Is Dashed. What Will You Do?

Today Had Whole Lots Of Fun At Our School's Annual Shines In Harmony! This Year Game Stalls Were Really Epic And Much More Fun Than Last Year's! Really Had A Great Time And Enjoyed Myself Loads! :D Our Angry Birds Stall Most Fail Among All The Games Though.

But Nevermind About That. When You're Having So Much Fun, Time Flies Really Fast Without You Realising. Coming Up Next Is The National Day's Before The Common Test And Those Holidays Are Time For Me To Do Revision. No Time To Slack. Have To Do Well For This Common Test Cause I Did Badly For My Test And I Cannot Afford To Fail Both My Test And Common Test.

Hmm. Sometimes, Family Problems Can Get Really Out Of Hand. But It's Not The Case For My Family. The Problems Are Already Way Out Of Hand. I Don't Have Good Vibes About My Parents. My Father Is Always An Asshole. If Someone Can Ever Tolerate Him, That'll Be A Miracle. If You Want To Know How Bad He Is, I Can Write A 10 Page Essay On Him And You Could Really See That He's Such An Ass. 


He Always Say That I'm So Lazy. It's The Truth In The Past, I Must Admit. I Use To Be Lazy And Still Get Decent Grades But Recently, Especially Since Sec 3, I've Been Working Harder Than Before And Especially Since Recently, I've Been Putting In Lot's Of Effort In My Studies. Spent Hours Completing Homework Which I Use To Just Copy. But My Grades Keep Dipping. The Syllabus Is Getting Harder And More Complicated. There's More To Memorise For Almost Every Subject. But. If My Father Understands Then Talk So Much About Experiencing Those Hard Times When He Was Young, Than Why Am I Feeling Those Hard Times Now? He Simply Doesn't Understand Me.


He Always Comes In To My Room At The Wrong Time And See's Me Using The Phone. I Was Probably Just Replying A Message Or Taking A 5mins Break On Facebook. What He Din't Know Or Notice Was The Hours I Had Spend On My Homework And Revision. Alright I Can Let This Matter Off Cause I Can't Blame Him. People Only Believe What They See Right? I'm Fine With This. I Can Tolerate. 


Second Thing About Him And What Makes Him An Asshole? He's Such A Stingy Fellow. Always Wasting Money On TOTO Or 4D And Never Win. And When I Take Money From Him Just To Go Out With Friends For A Meal, He Refuses To Give And Say A Whole Lot Of Crap. He Still Uses My Pocket Money To Threaten Me To Do Things. 'Wow' You Must Be Thinking What A 'Great And Awesome' Father I Have. The Best Joke Of The Day Is That If He Should At Least Threaten Me, Shouldn't He Increase My Pocket Money? It's Not As If He Gives Me $50 A Day. He Doesn't Even Give $10 A Day. It's Barely Enough To Feed Myself. I Will Always Skip Recess Or Lunch Because If I Don't Save Up Those Money, Or How Am I Able To Go Out With Friends For A Meal? I Can't Rely On Him Can I? 


Third Thing I Really Really Hate About Him. And Not Only Him. Anybody Who Acts As If They Are Concern Really Pisses Me Off. Act As If Really Care About Me. Talk So Much Only Care About Yourself. Do You Even Understand Me? Understand The Stress I'm Facing? You Think I Don't Know Why You Are Pressurising Me? Talk So Much About Me Being So Smart In The Past. PSLE I Never Studied And Get 242. You Put So Much Hope On Me. I Made You Disappointed Recently And You Probably Had Lot's Of Stress Than What? Vent Your Anger Of Me? Say What I No Hope. You're Just Scared That If My Brother Don't Do Well In The Future, I Could Still Get A Decent Job And Take Care Of You.The Problem Is If Now You Feel That I No Hope Than Keep Giving Me So Much Pressure On Studies For What? 


Is It You Feel That Teacher's Are To Relax, Not Giving Us Pressure? Everyday Got Extra Lessons, SSL, Still Got Whole Lot's Of Homework To Be Done. I May Be Young But I'm 100% Sure That The During The Olden Times, The Education Is So Sucky And You Learn Way Lesser Than What We Learn And Don't Feel The Stress.You Just Don't UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL DO YOU? Only Care About Yourself I Must Say. Haven't Vent My Anger Yet Though. Really Can't Tolerate Any Longer But Than I Will Continue To Tolerate. Yes. Till I Really Break Down. Till I Fall Hard. While You Can, Cherish It My Dear Father. I'm Giving You Face. I Could've Made You Feel All Guilty By Spilling The Beans Out On How I Feel About You. I Know You Still Have Conscience So I Din't Say It Out. If I Say It Out, It's Not Time For Me To Reflect, But Instead, YOU. Reflect On How Fail You Are. Why Do You Think You Have Always Been Guiding Me But I Fail To Do Well? Isn't It Partially Your Fault? Try To Meddle In My Studying Methods. I Remember In Sec 1 And 2, No One Guided Me And I Did Rather Okay. But In Sec 3, You Starting Trying To Guide Me And I'm Doing From Bad To Worse. Blame It On You But I Know You Must Be Thinking, 'Blame It On You.'


Feeling All Tired And Stressed-Out.

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