If Only Food Have Feelings.

Thursday Was Supposed To Be Another Buffet For Me This Week. But Super Long Queue At Momiji Because Of The One For One Promotion. Ended Up Eating The Super Delicious Char Kwaaaay Teow And Oyster Omelette At The Hawker Center Along Balestier Road Which Eventually Resulting In Me Having A Really Rough Night.

Threw Up For 2 Hours. Worst Ordeal Of Vomiting In My Life. Feeling Giddy And All. Even Today I Still Feel Weak And Don't Really Have Any Appetite, Which Means No Good Food Till I've Recovered Which Sucks.

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It's Over I Guess. And I Actually Asked Myself For The Last Time, How Much Was I Willing To Do For You? To Send You Home Everyday From School. It's 2 AM In The Morning, I'm Willing To Deliver Food To Your House If You're Hungry. And The Best, I Wanted To Leave It For The Last. But Guess It Doesn't Really Matter Anymore.

Letting Go. Because It's The Last Thing You Asked From Me. And It's The Only Thing That I Can Do To Lessen The Pain And Guilt I've Caused You. Not Because I Could Find Someone Better. And Not That It Matters.

I'll Just Let My Creativity Fall Back To Where It Belongs. Probably Bury It In A Secluded Isolated Place Where No One Else Can See Or Feel. I'll Just Be The Usual Boring Me Like Always. (:

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Probably Keep My Mind Occupied These Days. Exams Are Coming. Got To Work Hard! =) Looking Forward To The Super Long Holidays. Probably Look For A Job And There's Taiwan Trip. Wheeeeee.

Time To Be A Robot.

痛算什么

快乐又算什么

我什么都不知道

If Only Running Could Solve Problems.

Oh Yea. I Mean Like I Used To Run Almost Every Single Day. I Can Run Literally Every Single Day. My Friends Think I'm Fast. Well Me? I Started Running Since 9. And Till Now, I Was Never Faster Than Back Then. Because No Matter How Fast I Go, I Can't Seem To Run From My Problems. The Problems Are Like My Shadow And How Is It Possible For Me To Outrun My Shadow.

So We Got To Face It. We Can Delay, We Can Drag For Some Time, But Not Forever. And So..

Anyway Monday Was Great. Had Buffet At Chiso Zanmai @ Clarke Quay.

And I Overheard My Uncles And Aunties Talking About Heredity. And Now Everything Makes Sense. Because I Think I've Got It Too. And Yet I'm Just Trying My Best To Ignore It. Because How Can I Even Accept It. No One Will Understand How Much It Affects Me. If It's Any Other Normal Person That Has It, Then It'll Probably Be Okay. But Me? Nah. I Can't Even Tell My Parents. Because I Don't Want To Stop..

It's The Only Thing That Makes Me Feel Like I'm Alive.

And All I'm Betting On Is That It's A Reaction Due To An Allergy.

Because If It's Not, Then Seriously.

Fuck 
My
Life

Maybe It's Just My Karma.

I Made An Unforgivable Mistake. Karma Strikes Back. I Deserve It.

我怎么狠心

让你难过

我怎么能不内疚

难过的理由是我

We All Have Our Fears We Don't Wish To Face. But How Long Can We Run From Them?

I've Been Questioning Myself Just Who The Hell Am I?

And I've Gotten My Answer. 

A Jerk

How Could I Have Bare To Say Those Things. All I've Been Waiting For Was For Us To Face What's Right In Front Of Us. To Face Reality. 

I'm Sure The Pain You're Feeling Right Now. Definitely Many Times Worst Then Me. Because For Once I Took A Look At It From A Different Perspective. And For Once, I Saw A Loophole. A Loophole To Your Heart. One You Never Showed Anyone But Just Me.

It's Ironical Isn't It. It's Not Even Supposed To Make Any Sense. I'm The One Trying To Stop The Pain When I'm The One Who Caused It. Just How Much Did I Owe You In My Past Life? Would I Even Be Able To Repay My Debts.

But I Failed So Hard. It's Time I Reflect On Myself. What A Piece Of Crap I'm Made Off. I Think Worst. But I Got To Make Up For It. Now Isn't Time To Give Up On Someone Who Seems To Have Given Up On Herself. I Need To Try Harder Than This.

And I Will.

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