Life Is An Endless Search For Answers.

1 Planet, 196 Countries. Over 7 Billion People Who Lead 7 Billion Different Kinds Of Lives, No One Exactly Identical, And Here I Am Leading My Own Unique Life. And Yes, Even Though We Are Living In The Same World, No One Is Living Their Lives At The Same Pace. We May Be Sharing The Same Clock, But We Are In Our Own "Timezone".

And I'm Sure There Is A Purpose To Life. There Is A Reason I'm Born, Just Like Everyone Else Out There. It's Like Some People Are Born To Do Things We Define As "Bad" Or "Unacceptable" While Some Are Born To Do "Good" Or "Kind" Things In Life. Some Is Meant To Achieve "Huge" Accomplishments In Life While Some Are Just What We Called A "Total Failure". And If You Realised, The Good Can't Exist Without The Bad, Happiness Can't Exist Without Sadness. There Are All Kinds Of People Out There And Sometimes It's Hard To See What Kind Of Person I Actually Am.

But Then Again. Don't You Fear What You Will Become In The Future. I Mean It's True That We Should Take Things One Step At A Time. But What If Each Step Is Leading Us To A Future That We're Dreading Most. What If You Have Limited Or No Control Of The Steps You're Taking? What If All Of A Sudden The Steps Just Disintegrate And Crumbles Into Dust And You Fall Right Into An Endless Pit That Devours You.

So Many What If's In Life. What If Today Was My Last Day. What If I Get Into An Accident Tomorrow. What If I Dropped Out Of Poly? What If I Ran To Some Place Far Far Away. Infinity What If's. And Such What If's Exist Cause They Have Not Happened Before In My Life. What If I Had Another Identical Me Living In Another Dimension But Doing Different Things. I Really Wonder What Would've Been My Life Today If Each Decision I've Made Was Reversed. 

And My Point Is. I've Changed Countless Times In Life Due To Circumstances And Things That Happened And I'll Still Keep Changing To Adapt Just Like Everyone Else Does. So I Want To Remember Myself When I Was At This Point In Life, How I'm Feeling. I Guess That's The Purpose Of Blogging Isn't It?

小时候最单纯的回忆

永远都不会忘记

Like Always, All Good Times Comes To An End. But So Does All Bad Times.

Hmm. Just Four Days Have Past, And My Life Was Really Eventful.

Jurong Lake Run Volunteering On Saturday. Was Stationed At The Hydration Point But Because There Were So Many People Helping Out, So I Decided I Should Cheer On All The Runners. To Them, It's A Race, It's Not Gonna Be Easy.

To Me, It's A Race Too. Shouting And Trying My Best To Motivate All These Runners For Two Non-Stop Hours Isn't Easy. I Guess I Do What I'm Good At Doing Best. I'm So Happy Many Of Them Said Thank You And All, And Some Who Were Walking And About To Give Up, After They've Heard Me Cheering Them On, They Continued Running! That's The Way!!!

It Really Reminded Me Of My Sundown Marathon. There Was One Stretch Along East Coast Park, While I Was Running, Many Kids Came Up To Hi-Five Me And Some Were Clapping At The Side. They Were So Hyper And Some Even Came To Shake Hands. That Really Motivated Me. They Are So Cuteeeee. I Felt So Touched Because They Were Really So Innocent.

Sunday Was Stay Home And So I Decided To Be The Chef And Cooked Spaghetti Lunch For Family. Tried My New Tuna Recipe But Mum Didn't Really Like It. Maybe I Should Come Up With Something More Interesting. HAHAA!

Monday Was Stay Over At My Bro's House And Mahjong And Gaming. So Much Fun And It's The First Time I Actually Won So Much In Mahjong. What Luck! HAAHAHAHAA!

Today Was Awesomeeee. Long Time Since We Had Some Singing Session And It Was Really Great. I Love To Sing. Because It's Really When I'm Able To Express My Feelings That Have Been Kept Deep Inside For A Really Long Time. Every Song, With Their Lyrics, Tells A Story. And Sometimes The Lyrics Just Make So Much Sense I Can't Believe It's Actually Telling A Story About Me.

But Then Again. It's An Irony. Why Do I Say So? The Songs I Listen To Just Sends My Emotions Crashing In. I Really Hate To Feel. Abit Is Okay But Now It's Really Overwhelming. I Really Hate It. It's A Nightmare.

I Am A Lucky Person, But Definitely Not A Worthy Person. As Time Goes By, It's Just Harsh Reality That I'll Have To Face. Everytime I Look Into The Mirror (I Barely Do So), I'm Disgusted At How I Look. With All That Huge Pimples And Holes In My Face. Pathetic. It's Who I Am Still. At Least On The Outside. Maybe What's On The Inside Don't Really Matter Because I've Never Felt More Empty In My Life.

Maybe It's A Fact. That No Matter How Hard I Try. It's Never Going To Work Out. It's Never Good Enough For Someone Like You. I Know I'm Short, Far Short Of That. I Have To Face That. My Actions Have Proven. You Deserve So Much Better. You Deserve To Be Much Happier.

So Maybe. I Shouldn't Try Getting Any Closer Than This Because I'm Already Lucky Enough To Be This Close. For Now What I Can Do Is Like What I Did Half A Year Ago. Just Keep Running. Run From Everything And Act Like There's Actually Nothing Going On. But If I'm Gonna Do That, I'll Be Really Irresponsible. Knowing Myself, I'll Rather Be The One Hurt Instead. It's Like I Can't Move Forward, Yet I Can't Just Backout. No Idea What I Should Do. Sit On The Fence? I'm Soooo Fucked Up.

So Thankful For All The Friends That Are In My Life Nevertheless. I Don't Know Where I'll Be Without Them. I Love It When I Can Come Up With Any Kind Of Jokes And They Don't Get Offended At All. I Love It When We Can Talk About Simply Anything And Just Go Crazyyy.

就是以为如果不去想

就会没事

但是这能改变事实吗

You Are The One.

Quite Alot To Blog About. Like About The Camp Last Week And It Has Been A Really Good Week So Far. One Of The Best Weeks I'm Having In Months.

Throwback To BFS Camp Which Is About A Week Ago. First Time Working In Logistics Department And It Has Been Wonderful Though Tiring. It's Worth It. Seeing The Campers Having So Much Fun. It Feels Like All My Effort Is Worth It. And The Wonderful Skit Put Up By Us Invictus (Helpers). Great Camp Experience And Fun. Definitely Enjoyable.

Throwback To Three (Four) Days Ago. I'm So Glad I Was Able To See You. I Really Miss Your Smile. The Smile That Could Instantly Bright Up Anyone's World. It's Amazing. My Sunshine. You Are My Sunshine. The Things We Did Was Simply Amazing. Fun. Memorable.

From When I First Met You And The Shopping, Cooking, Washing, Playing Of Games, Movie Watching. Everything. What's Not To Like About. How We Fought To Pay At The Counter, How We Allocate Who Should Prepare What For That Meal, Who Should Wash The Plates.

And The Card I Received Was A Surprised Too!

The Things I Did For You, The Balloons, Cards And The Video On Your Birthday. Everything I Did Was More Than Worth It. Because It's You. I'm So In Love. Somebody Save Me Pleaseeeeeeeeeee.

No One Has Ever Made Me Feel Anywhere As Near As How I'm Feeling Right From The Start. If It's Anyone Else, The Most I'll Do Is A Card. But It's You, Anything Is Possible. My Creativity Runs Wild. There's Endless Ideas I Could Surprise You With And Touch Your Heart. There Is No Distance Too Far To Reach Because It's You. 

But.. Maybe It's Selfless Love. It's Okay Even If I Give Without Getting Anything In Return, Which Is Usually Not True Most Of The Times Because I'm Sure You Smiled And That's All That Matters. I Understand Totally That You Have Commitments To Studying Hard And Giving Your Parents A Good Life In The Future Which I'm Sure You Will. 

And I'm Sure There Are Many Guys After You Too Cause You're Cute, Pretty, Caring, Thoughtful And The List Goes On.

I Guess It's Okay If Things Are This Way. I'm Happy And Contented. 

What Else Can I Wish For?

Today Was Wonderful. Met Up With My Bros And Finally Had My Favorite Bak Kut Teh And Cafe Pal's Thai Milk Tea! We Also Watched The Lion Men Part 2. Was A Really Wonderful Movie, Because Not Only It Is A Really Humorous Movie, It Has Mixed Emotions Mixed Into It Too. I Think Such Movies Are The Best. Dinner At Astons And Finally We Had Some Wii Fun At PlayNation!! So Much Fun All In One Day.

But.. I'm Broke. Never Felt So Broke In My Lifeeee! HAHAAA! But Who Cares. I Only Have Two Weeks To Spend My Money After Which I Shall Start Saving When School Terms Starts Again~

能看到你快乐

看到你笑

我是心满意足了

Most Things That I Expect To Happen, The Exact Opposite Happens Instead.

No Idea How Or Why. And I Don't Even Expect Much Actually. Somehow The Exact Opposite Always Happens. No Explanations For It. But At Least Now I Know What To Expect Now If I Want Good Things To Happen. See Everything Negatively And Somehow Positive Things Will Happen.

Has Been A Really Tiring Week. Left Last Paper Which Falls On Friday. And Camp Will Go On Till Sunday. Hope Time Will Past Faster.

Can't Exactly Say That I'm Looking Forward To Next Week But Yea, It's The Holidays, What Not To Look Forward To. But Just 2 Weeks With Five Projects To Be Completed, Is This A Joke?

It's Been Some Time Since I Actually Let My Creativity Run Wild Again. Every Single Time, I Manage To Impress Even Myself. I Know I Have No Talent When It Falls Onto Such Things But It Just Takes Place Naturally. Natural Talent Without Any Logic. But Because I'm Doing It For You, That's Why I Can Perform Magic. Magic That Has Not Been Taught To Me.

Simply.

Magical.

魔术的最高境界

就是变出一个

你连自己都不知道

能变出来的魔术

Yet Another Milestone Reached.

Wasn't My Best Run. In Fact One Of The Worst.

I'm Not Going To Blog Out The Whole Experience Of It, But Yep, Sundown Marathon Really Challenges Me To My Limits, Almost Brought Me To Insanity. The Pain Just So Intense. My Mind Felt Like It Was Bursting Just Like How My Legs Felt Like They Were Tearing Apart. It Was Bad Enough.

Just Simply Say I Prepared Quite Late Only Two Months In Advanced And Only Just One Month Before Did I Really Put In Much More Effort Which Explains Why It's So Tough For Me To Finish This 42.195 Km. And To Be Honest, It Felt Like I Ran More Than That And My Tracker Actually Showed I Covered More.

Timing When I Cross The Finishing Line I Saw Was 4 Hr 31 Mins But I Stop My Tracker Late Which Explains The 4 Hr 34 Mins! HAHAA! But Still Not A Really Good Timing. Under My Expectations. And Well, Look At The Calories Burnt! AHAHAA! One Full Day Of Calories Intake. I Definitely Loss At Least 2-3 Kg I Believe! HAHAA!

Look At All The Swaggg ^

Not Going To Compete In Any More Marathons For The Time Being, At Least Not For This Year. It's Too Damaging To The Knees. I Have Difficulty Walking Even Today And Especially Climbing The Steps. And Since I've Experienced It, My Advise Is DON'T RUN IF YOU DON'T TRAIN HARD ENOUGH.

It's Just That Simple HAHA!

虽然不顺利

没有放弃

还是完成了

The Start Matters. But What Matters Even More Is The End. How Are You Gonna Finish?

Finally. Today. The Day I've Been Training So Hard For The Past Few Months. Just For Today. It's Sundown Marathon. Flag Off Won't Be Anytime Until About 23 Hours Later. Which Means I Still Have Time To Mentally Prepare Myself As Well As To Do Lots Of Stretching And Really Have A Good Sleep (After I'm Done With This! HAHA!)

Actually I'm Not To Sure How I'm Going To Treat This Race. Starting Well Is Definitely Important. Got To Pace Myself Evenly Throughout The Race. Am Really Nervous To Be Honest Cause I'm Not Sure What The Consequences Are For Finishing The Race And How Well I Will Perform Because It's A Distance I've Never Covered Before. And Most Importantly, I Want To Finish Strong As Well.

So The Plan Is: Take A Marker And Draw On My Hand The Different Checkpoint Timings (Probably Every 2.5km) Target Is Still Low 4 Hours Or If Possible, Below That To Really Give Myself A Really Good Challenge.

Actually That Is Not The Original Plan At All.
The Original Plan Was To YOLO!!! HAHAHAA!

At Least I'm Done With All My E-Learning Assignments, I Can Just Focus On My Race. But Common Test Starts In Just 1 Week Time. And It's On A SATURDAY!!! I Haven't Started On Any Revision Yet Because This Is Such A Busy Semester And I Haven't Really Manage My Time Well. Which Means It's Another YOLO.

Just Gonna Take Things One Step At A Time. All Focus.

Sundown Marathon.

Let's Do This.

做的事越疯狂

过程就会越难忘

Because I Know I'm Strong Enough To Handle This.

Finally 18!!! Busy These Days Really Couldn't Find The Time To Blog Any Sooner!

And So Here It Is. Did 18.18 Km Run And Surprisingly The Seconds Were 18 Too! Something Unique I Guess. At Least I Enjoyed Myself And It Was A Test Run For My Actual Marathon Coming In Just 5 Days Time.

And Yup Didn't Expect To Be Celebrating My Birthday But My Parents Insist On Dining Out And So I Had Dinner At Jack's Place!

And There Was A Free Cake From Starbucks Too! Phewwww. So Much Good Food In Just One Day I Just Can't Explain How Much I Really Enjoyed Myself!

Am Really Thankful That Some Of My Friends Still Remembered My Birthday Though I Didn't Expect Any Too. And Like All The Wishes Through Voice Messages, Messages, Tweets And Facebook. Did Not Receive And Gift Or What But It's Always The Thought That Counts. The Rest Doesn't Really Matter.

And On Saturday. BA CARES Inauguration @ Sentosa! Woke Up So Damn Early Just To Be On Time To Discuss Some Cheer Thing Which We Did Not Use In The End Because Garfield Combined With Pink Panther As We Had Too Little Members, And So We Had A Combined Cheer. There Goes My Sleeeeep. Overall Was Fun But Really Tiring.

Anyways This Week Is E-Learning Week. But I Always Believe That It Is Just An Excuse For Tutors To Give Us More Work To Do And It Is Important That We Plan Our Time Wisely. The Problem Is Whenever It Comes To Studies, I Don't Have Discipline. HAHAA! Whatever~

因为我们慢慢了解批次

我开始渐渐有把握

能够让你快乐的是我