Isn't It Weird? How You Just Can Predict Some Things So Dead Accurately?

I Really Don't Know What I'm Feeling Now. Somehow Maybe. It All Happened So Fast Even Me. I Don't Know Since When I've Felt So Attached To You. The Thought Of You Going Back Just Crush Me So Hard I Can Barely Breathe At Times. It Feels So Suffocating.

Memories We Had To The Many Many Places We've Been. They Were The Usual Places I've Always Patronised. It's Just. You're Part Of My Life. I Didn't Expect It To Be This Way. I Thought Everything Was Supposed To Be Temporary. Well The Feelings I Had Developed So Quickly I Can't Even Explain How. But Still. Never Have I Felt Such A Feeling In My Life. Like Even If Everything Was Just An Illusion.

It's Time To Let Go I Guess. It Should All Be Just A Memory But I'm Holding On To It Like It's Just Happening. There's Still Hope. I Have To Just Cut Myself Off Totally.

At Least For Me, Though I Didn't Really Instagram Or Tweet On Any Of Our Meetings, I Think Those Are The Things That Happened That Means The Most To Me. And It's Like A Secret. And There's No Point In Putting On Social Media Because They're Things That Happen That I'll Remember For Life. And I Don't Need A Platform For Me To Look Back. All Inside My Head.

For Now. Letting Go.

Totally No Feel For CNY.

曾经拥有的快了

谢谢你

我不会忘记

I Was Right. It Doesn't Really Matter Anymore. Or Maybe I Really Just Don't Care.

It Has Been So Many Days Since I Last Blogged.

And It Has Been An Even Longer Period Since I Last Talked To You. Each And Every Second That Passes By, I Can Feel Everything Just Fading Away. Slowly But Surely, It Will. And Of Course, I'm Feeling So Much Better, Though There's Still Some Urge To Show Some Care, But I Just Brush It Off In The End. I've Come So Far And Tried So Hard, There's No Way I'm Going Back To Square One.

But I Sure As Hell Can Feel The Stress Coming In. Really Tired. So Much Work And Projects. And So Much To Study For Finals. So Much Nagging At All The Small Stuffs And All. Getting Really Irritated Easily And Frustrated But I Guess I Just Need To Control. But I Can Barely Do It These Few Days.

Anyways, Watched The Complex Last Wednesday. Was A Sucky Ghost Movie. Not Really Scary And The Ending Was Left Hanging. Many Question Marks About The Storyline As Well. But Still, At Least Some Thrill In It.

Time Will Tell. And I Will Tell Myself: Just. Don't. Care.

不要相信别人

相信自己

It Only Gets Better. Because I Think I've Reached The Bottom.

Guess It'll Take Time To Get Over It. But Yea. Time Really Flies. Had A Great Time All Alone Today. Went Bowling.

Game 1. The Usual Warm-up.

Game 2 Is Usually The Game 

Which I Pick Up My Form And Adjust.

Hurt My Finger During Game 2. 

But It Doesn't Really Affect Me.

Game 3 Is Usually My Peak Game! (:

And Last Game Is Kinda Like A Warm Down. 

Usually Worst Then My First But Somehow It's Slightly Better.

Kinda Unlucky Though Because I Didn't Have Many Strikes. But Sparing Is All About The Accuracy. So Overall, Was Quite Accurate.

So Apparently I'm Doing This Because There's A List Of Things I Want To Try Doing Alone. So Bowling Is Off The List! Another Reason Is Because I Need To Find An Output! HAHA! Feels So Much Better.

你的选择已经不重要了

因为你已经做了决定

选择属于你的幸福

所以我不会再回头了

Putting Others Before Yourself Is A Stupid Thing To Do.

First Post Of 2014 And I Think It's Not Gonna Be A Really Good One.

At Least Ton During Tuesday/Wednesday Was A Really Good One. Watching Videos And Movies And Some Dota. Really Great.

And Today, Bowling With My Bros. Turned Out Great. I Mean When You're Having Fun, You Don't Think.

And Thinking Creates A Whole Lot Of Problems. But Sometimes, It Just Makes Sense To Reflect On Yourself.

Like Being The Nice Guy And All. I Think It's Time To Put Myself Before Others. Many Many Things Happened And I Think I Should Just Spend More On Myself And Spend Less On Others. If There's No Reason, I Don't See Why I Should Even Spend. I Don't See How People Will Appreciate You For Being Nice. Guess Some Will Just Take Advantage Of You.

And Though I've Said This Countless Times, I Can't Seem To Do It. I'll Feel Bad And All. Guess It's In Me. But It's A Whole New Year. I Should Be Hopeful In Being A 'Not So Nice' Guy.

And I Shouldn't Even Think. I Should Learn How To Stone. Like Staring At An Object And Focus And Not Do Anything. It Feels So Much Better.

And It's Always Good To Be 100% Independent. And That's What I'm Going To Be. Not Going To Let Anyone Affect Me Except Myself.

And The Lyrics That I Listen To But Can't Related To. Some Is Starting To Make Sense.

Cheers To A Whole New Year! Because There's No Turning Back. At Least, I Won't. Move On Dude.

心甘情愿

为了你

背叛自己

无话可说

Last Day Of The Year.

Had A Great Time Just Now. Lunch @ Xin Wang And Watched The Delivery Man. The Delivery Man Was Such A Great Movie. I Mean It's Kinda Cool To Be The Dad Of 533 People. How Cool Can That Be. People Might Judge But Who Cares. Fuck Everyone Who Judge And Just Be Yourself. HAHA!

2013 Wasn't Exactly A Great Year. Been Into Poly Tried Socialising, Joining Camps And All, And Realised Maybe What I Really Need Are True Friends In The End, So I Stopped Joining Camps. Much Change During The Year. Made Lots Of Friends Through Twitter. Drifted From Some Of My Close Friends And Managed To Catch Up Before This Year Actually Ends.

Fell In Love And Well, Fell Out Of Love. I Mean. Maybe I'm Not Gonna Go For It Anymore. I'll Just Sit Back And Really Enjoy Life. I Don't Need A Relationship. I Don't Need A Partner. I May Feel Lonely At Times But I Know I'm Not Alone. Maybe That's What Really Matters.

And Maybe It's Better That Way. I Can Do Anything I Like Without Getting Judged And I've No Responsibility For My Actions. I Feel Really Blessed To Have Friends Who Are Willing To Go Out And Have Fun With Me. Who Understands My Jokes. Who I Actually Feel Really Comfortable With When I'm Around Them. What's Most Important Is That, I Can Be Myself.

So Much To Reflect But Really, I Don't Want To Think Anymore. Not A Breakdown On The Last Day Of The Year. So Much Happened But Really, There's Only So Much I Want To Recall.

结束了

终于结束了

心动

变心东

回到从前吧

It's Christmas!

This Year Is So Much Different From Last Year. Didn't Expect Myself To Be Giving And Receiving For Christmas. I Don't Really Celebrate. I Think I Just Find It As More Of Having A Reason To Give People Something. Or I Guess It'll Feel Weird If You Give Someone Something If It's Not A Special Occasion.

Christmas Has Only One Purpose Each And Every Year To Me. It Serves As A Reminder That The Year Is Coming To An End In Less Than A Week. I Don't Like How Everything Is Zooming Past Me. Time Flies So Fast. As The Year Goes By, The Stress Just Piles Up. Guess It's All Part Of Growing Up. But I'm So Glad I Survived Another Year. So Much For The Movie '2012'. Hell Yeahhh I'm Moving On To 2014 Soon.

But There Are So Many So Many Reasons I Don't Want The New Year To Come. But I Guess I Can't Avoid It. Just Have To Face It. It's Not Like I Can't Overcome All The Difficulties. There's Always The Little Fear That Somehow Something Might Just Happened. Life And Death. Live It.

不需要知道理由

也不需要问原因

我明白

Helpless.

Frozen. Nice Fairy Tale That Actually Gives People Hope But Fairy Tale's Are After All Just Fairy Tales. But I Really Like How The Movie Actually Shows That Love Is Magical And It Can Overcome All Odds. But In Real Life It Could Be The Total Opposite. Creates A Whole Lot Of Problems.

And. I Really. Want To Stop Thinking. But It Can't Be Helped. Why Do I Keep Hiding Everything. It's Plain Stupid. But No One Actually Cares. No One Does.

I Love Eating. And Food Is So Much Like.. I Don't Really Know How I Actually Managed To Relate It, But It's Really Damn True In General.

1) For Food That Is Served With Ugly Presentations, It Could Possibly Taste Good, But First Impression Counts. So Chances Are, No One Would Try It. But If You Do, You'll Realise Taste Matters More Because After All No Matter How It Looks Like, It'll Still Be The Same After It Enters Your Mouth And Stomach. Such Food Are Usually Affordable.

2) For Food That Is Beautifully Served And Presented, I'm Sure Everyone Would Like To Try It. But If It Tastes Bad, You Wouldn't Want To Try It Again. Affordable But Slightly More Expensive.

3) So There's The Look Ugly And Taste Bad Ones As Well, But They Are Usually Cheap. Well If You're Really Hungry And Short Of Cash, I Guess It Doesn't Really Matter Does It? For The More Desperate People

4) And Finally The Last Type. The Perfect Type Of Food. Look, Smell, Taste.. Everything Just Perfect. But You Know What? It Isn't What Normal People Can Afford. You Must Be Someone Really Rich Or Rather, Worthy/Classy Enough To Taste Such Food.

And I Don't Know Why. But Somehow.. You Fall Into The Last Category. Something I Really Can't Afford.

I Keep Asking Myself The Same Question - Why Bother?

I Was Hoping Maybe One Day I'll Get A Different Answer. I Should Stop Trying. Stop Making Myself Look Like A Fool. Stop.

就算结束了

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