It's Christmas!

This Year Is So Much Different From Last Year. Didn't Expect Myself To Be Giving And Receiving For Christmas. I Don't Really Celebrate. I Think I Just Find It As More Of Having A Reason To Give People Something. Or I Guess It'll Feel Weird If You Give Someone Something If It's Not A Special Occasion.

Christmas Has Only One Purpose Each And Every Year To Me. It Serves As A Reminder That The Year Is Coming To An End In Less Than A Week. I Don't Like How Everything Is Zooming Past Me. Time Flies So Fast. As The Year Goes By, The Stress Just Piles Up. Guess It's All Part Of Growing Up. But I'm So Glad I Survived Another Year. So Much For The Movie '2012'. Hell Yeahhh I'm Moving On To 2014 Soon.

But There Are So Many So Many Reasons I Don't Want The New Year To Come. But I Guess I Can't Avoid It. Just Have To Face It. It's Not Like I Can't Overcome All The Difficulties. There's Always The Little Fear That Somehow Something Might Just Happened. Life And Death. Live It.

不需要知道理由

也不需要问原因

我明白

Helpless.

Frozen. Nice Fairy Tale That Actually Gives People Hope But Fairy Tale's Are After All Just Fairy Tales. But I Really Like How The Movie Actually Shows That Love Is Magical And It Can Overcome All Odds. But In Real Life It Could Be The Total Opposite. Creates A Whole Lot Of Problems.

And. I Really. Want To Stop Thinking. But It Can't Be Helped. Why Do I Keep Hiding Everything. It's Plain Stupid. But No One Actually Cares. No One Does.

I Love Eating. And Food Is So Much Like.. I Don't Really Know How I Actually Managed To Relate It, But It's Really Damn True In General.

1) For Food That Is Served With Ugly Presentations, It Could Possibly Taste Good, But First Impression Counts. So Chances Are, No One Would Try It. But If You Do, You'll Realise Taste Matters More Because After All No Matter How It Looks Like, It'll Still Be The Same After It Enters Your Mouth And Stomach. Such Food Are Usually Affordable.

2) For Food That Is Beautifully Served And Presented, I'm Sure Everyone Would Like To Try It. But If It Tastes Bad, You Wouldn't Want To Try It Again. Affordable But Slightly More Expensive.

3) So There's The Look Ugly And Taste Bad Ones As Well, But They Are Usually Cheap. Well If You're Really Hungry And Short Of Cash, I Guess It Doesn't Really Matter Does It? For The More Desperate People

4) And Finally The Last Type. The Perfect Type Of Food. Look, Smell, Taste.. Everything Just Perfect. But You Know What? It Isn't What Normal People Can Afford. You Must Be Someone Really Rich Or Rather, Worthy/Classy Enough To Taste Such Food.

And I Don't Know Why. But Somehow.. You Fall Into The Last Category. Something I Really Can't Afford.

I Keep Asking Myself The Same Question - Why Bother?

I Was Hoping Maybe One Day I'll Get A Different Answer. I Should Stop Trying. Stop Making Myself Look Like A Fool. Stop.

就算结束了

为你做的一切

还是值得

When You're Really Sincere In Giving, What You Get In Return Really Doesn't Matter, Even If It's Nothing.

So Basically What I Did For The Past 2 Days. Another Visit To Malaysia. This Time Was 1 Night Stay At KSL Mall! One Of The Tallest Hotels And Best Hotels In Johor.

This Time Was For Shopping!! Finally Bought Some Clothes Since Like 1 Year Ago? Actually I Did Nothing Much, Except For Just Eating And Shopping! HAH!

This Was My Bed.

So This Was Basically The View From 16 Floor. The Highest Is 28.

Dinosaur Water Theme Park In The Hotel. 

Was Really Small And Nothing Really Special.

All The Food You See Above + Stingray (I Forgot To Took A Picture Of It But Nevermind) All For Just 50 RM (20 SGD).

Drank Abit As Well.

Buffet Breakfast! Know It's Not Alot.. My Stomach Has Shrunkkk! ):

So Basically, That's About It.

我是相信奇迹

只不过不相信

他会发生在我身上

You Don't Always Have To Receive To Feel Good. To Give Actually Makes One Feels Better.

CT's Are Overrr! And X'mas Is Coming Real Soon. I See Many Busy Days Ahead Since There'll Be Lots Of Meetups, As Well As Lots Of Project Work To Be Completed.

Basically Spent The Last 5 Hours Doing Christmas Gifts And Stuffs And I'm Not Done Yet.. Feeling Damn Shag! HAHAA! But I Guess It'll Be Worthwhile. And After Finishing Everything, I Can Just Sit Back And Wait For The Clock To Tick Till It's Christmas. (:

如果一直去想

只会让你更痛苦

I Guess, Some Things, Just Aren't Meant To Be.

This Few Days Have Been Really Unproductive In Terms Of Studying.. Have Been Slacking Like 99% And Studying 1%..

But That Aside. Running So Far Has Been Great. I've Covered 20 Km So Far, So I'm Still On Track, But I Really Doubt I Can Hit 80 Km When I Look At My Schedule Straight After Common Test.. Packed Like Crazy. But I Still Got Lots Of Time To Train, So I Guess It's Okay. I Shall Just Try And See How Far I Can Cover.

And I Guess. Everything Will Finally Be Over. Maybe. (: But It's Gonna Feel So Good After I Have Let Out Everything I've Kept So Long And Wanted To Tell You. Amazing You.

Bstats Tomorrow And MAEC The Day After. Huat Ahhhhhhh!


Stupid 2XU. I'm Not 18 And I Can't Sign Up. Sigh Pieee. Shall Go For Sundown Then.

不需要拥有

因为只要你快乐

我也为你而感到快乐

The Courage To Fail Will Develop The Mentality To Succeed.

Wanted To Blog On 1st December But When I Look At The Clock, It's Already 2nd December.

Good Run Today! Good Way To Start December. I Really Really Want To Give Myself A Target This Whole Month. But I've Never Really Manage To Achieve The Distance I've Wanted To Cover Each Month So Far. But Still. 80 km (75 more) For The Last Month Of 2013. I Really Hope I Can End This Month On A High Note.

It's Really Ironic That During The Race Day, I'll Achieve Way Below The Target I've Set. How Ironic. Maybe Because Of The Runners Running Along With Me. Gives Me The Motivation To Run On. I Really Don't Know. I Keep Trying To Find Motivation In Everything.

And.

I Can't Believe I Actually Find Motivation In Feeling The Pain. The More Pain I Feel, I Feel More Motivated Than Ever To Run. Keep Running. And I'll Realise That These Pain Don't Matter Anymore. It's Not Because The Pain Is Gone. It Never Is. It Never Will. I Just Learn To Cope With It In My Own Way. Emotional Pain. Physical Pain. I Need More Of Them. It's What Makes Me Grow Stronger. I Don't Want To Go Out To The Working World Feeling All Weak.

All I Want To Do, Maybe Is To Just Run Each Day, Running Like It's My Last. I Can't Seem To Have Like Any Other Commitments Other Than Running And Studies. At Least For Now.

为什么给我感动

给我快乐

为什么给我忧伤

给我希望

The Pain And Stress Never Goes Away. We Just Learn How To Cope With It Better.

Great Day! No Lessons Todayyy! Wheee! HAHAA! But I'm Up In The Morning As Usual To Runnnn! That's A Good Sign Because The Last Time I Wasn't Lazy And Ran In The Morning Was About 3 Months Ago. (:

Productive Morning Doing My Online Data Collection. About 20% Doneeee Though I Spent Like 3 Hours Doing It.. Really Too Muchhh! And To Stop Myself From Being Lazy, I Had To Head Out To Do My Tutorials, If Not I Will Succumb To The Temptation To Sleeeeeeeeeep.

Met My Bros For Dinner At Nighttt! Simple Meal, But Meaningful And Funny Conversations We Had. HAHAA!

And All This While. As I Start Piecing Everything Together.

Running.

Pure Hardwork, Motivation And Perseverance. And Really. Everything Depends On Oneself. I Don't Have A Coach. I Don't Have A Team. I'm A One Man Show. No One To Cheer Me On, To Motivate Me. No One To Guide Me. It Feels So Lonely. But I Think It Makes Me Stronger, With Each Step I Take. Mind Over Body. Tell Myself I Can Do It, And Sure Enough I Can. 

There's This Story About This Guy Who Won A Marathon The First Time He Was Running. How Did He Do It? Before The Race, He Was Prepared. He Broke Down One Long Race Into Many Short Races By Marking This So Called 'Checkpoints' At Small Intervals. And All He Did Was Sprint To Complete This Short, But Many Races. His Physique Wasn't Extraordinary. His Mind Was.

The Chances Of Me Winning A Marathon Is Zero, And I'm Even Unsure If I Can Complete One Without Walking. I Used To Think Trying Was Enough. But I Realised Finally That Trying Is Nothing. It's Not Something I Should Be Aiming For. How Can I Not Try Right? Trying Is A Must, A Minimum Criteria. 

So How Do I Go Further Than Trying? I Need To Start Setting Goals. I Need To Aim For Something. If I Aim For The Stars, I'll Probably Land On The Moon. I Should Stop Giving Myself Excuses. If My Muscles Are Aching, Then I Got To Train Harder. No Pain, No Gain. Soon, The Pain Will No Longer Matter. And I'll Have A Faster Recovery Rate. It's Time I Stop Giving Myself Excuses. Even The Disabled Have Their Success Stories, What Is My Pain Compared To Theirs...

在乎你的

你不去在乎

不在乎你的

你又何必去在乎